Peace

It has been almost two weeks since graduation and I have moved back to Roanoke. I haven't been doing much other than working and hanging out at home. Really though, I haven't even started unpacking everything. That could just be denial that I'm not moving back to school, or out of Roanoke anytime soon. I have been struggling a lot since I have been home just trying to figure out where my life is going. I know there is no sense trying to figure it out because God's timing is much different than mine and I know all of that will be revealed to me in due time. Not to mention, there are so many people I miss from school that I wish weren't hours away! Luckily for me, I am going back to Newport News next weekend because I still have a lot of stuff to get from my apartment and bring back. I am counting down the days to see some of my good friends that are still there.

I know I mention a lot how I struggle with anxiety and I overthink everything. I mean everything. One thing the Lord has really been showing me since I have been home is that I need to learn patience. This past week my devotional was focusing on God's Voice. I read a lot of scripture about listening to the Lord and I think that could not be more perfect for me right now. I need to stop and listen for the Lord over all of my anxious and doubtful thoughts. Each week a part of my devotional is to focus on one of the Psalms. Last week it was Psalm 29. Verse 11 says "The Lord gives strength to his people; the Lord blesses his people with peace." I have been feeling particularly weak lately but this verse really permeated my thoughts. The Lord told Paul "my grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Paul writes about rejoicing over his weakness, because when he is weak the Lord makes him strong. I completely related to that, because right now I am feeling weak and I need to lean on the Lord and let him strengthen me. Today I had to work at 4:30... a.m. (Yes people come to the gym that early, crazy!) and I just felt such a sense of peace descending on me.

One way the Lord has definitely answered some prayers for me lately is by blessing me with an awesome opportunity. Two summers ago when I was serving on Summer Staff at Young Life's Windy Gap, one of the families on the Assigned Team was the Faison's. Sarah and Eric have four kids, all of which I absolutely fell in love with. This summer they are on assignment at Young Life's Sharp Top Cove and because Sarah is starting a new job, they need a nanny. I semi-jokingly offered up my services and Sarah asked me to be their nanny. It's official! I will be spending four weeks, June 17 - July 18, being their nanny. I am really excited for the opportunity to return to Sharp Top and be a witness to campers having the best week of their lives and for many of them, accepting Christ. My favorite part of each week is during the last club during the "Say So" when they ask the campers who have decided to begin a relationship with Christ to stand and "say so". It gets me every time and brings tears to my eyes. The month will be a much different experience than I have had before but I am so excited for what the month has in store.

P.S. If you are searching for a good book, I just read "Heaven is For Real". I couldn't put it down and it is a really easy read. It's a wonderful story and really uplifting.