Anxiety

Well it turns out that I am not the best (most consistent) blogger. Either I don't have much to say or I'm way to busy working all of the time, maybe it is both?? As much as I love earning money and feeling financially secure for when I go back to school next month, I am really worn out. I am actually looking forward to going back to school and getting into the "daily grind", it will feel like a vacation compared to the "summer" I've been having. I am really looking forward to classes and being back around friends.

The reason for this post. One of my good friends was in a head on collision today, going 50 mph, they had to use the "Jaws of Life" to get him out of the car, serious surgery on his legs to follow.All because the other driver didn't know how to drive on his side of the road. He is fine right now but this does nothing for my s.e.v.e.r.e. anxiety when I'm in a car. Like I am talking severe severe anxiety. I reach the verge of tears more and more often now when I ride passenger. I think one day I will give my self a heart attack because I get so worked up and nervous. I know here soon I won't be able to ride in the car with other people if I don't work on my anxiety. I feel bad that I can't just relax in the car, even if I'm driving I get anxiety.

I have nightmares about getting in horrible car wrecks, like movie status car wrecks. This probably doesn't help either. I just need to learn to take deep breaths and just trust that I have a long life ahead of me....